Sunday, March 28, 2010
My boyfriend =D @ 12:01 AM
AHEM! Sweep sweep sweep away the cobwebs.
I guessed there will not be anyone interested in this deserted blog. I decided not to 'advertise' my blog, let's see how many people will make an effort to see this blog again.
Today, I was a little disappointed when I called him and he said he is busy asking his friends questions about the upcoming test. And yes, I am understanding. *hesitated a little* Not really, I guessed. I gave him a tone which sounds from enthusiastic to a moody one. I should be MORE understanding alright. And, I know, if I were to be in his shoes, he will be that angel who always supports me quietly without disturbing. =D
Just watched Seven days, acted by Felicia Chin and Seth Ang. It was a nice love show. Before I watched the show, there are actually a few unhappy things between Kenneth and I. 1. We were quite quiet when talking on the phone (this is unusual) 2. He always made an effort to message me in every morning, but I only send him as and when I like, which I can feel that he is sad. =( 3. Kinda neglected him because my Dad just bought me a new laptop which can play sims3! Can't multi-task while talking to him (he called), which sometimes made me feel very frustrated. =( 4. Suspecting whether he is upset because I played sims or when I didn't sms him. Until he said,"Have you ever thought that I am just tired?" Then, my heart sunk. After watching the show, which lasted an hour, I suddenly thought back our past again. And I smiled.
I remembered the first time we meet each other. Looking at each other secretly, that first handshake, that first introduction, and that first date. Flash backed the past whereby he done a self-made video to confess his love to me. Secretly hiding behind my back until I done watching the video clip. in the end, I didn't accept him immediately. I laughed again!
He was the one who supported and encouraged me to step out when I suffered from a sudden acne out-break. He would always be the one saying, or I should say, repeating to me, "Do you think I love you just by your appearance? Remember you will always the most beautiful I girl in my heart. And you will get better. Trust me."
He "dares" to take photos with me ( acne monster) in the public, hugged me while taking photos. Sometimes, I feel guilty and sad for him as I suffered from this stupid acne only after I am with him for a month. The first few months, in order to look the best in front of him, I put on make-up despite the fact that I know is will worsen my skin further. Like what the Chinese proverb says, "过一天是一天". He was the one who stopped me from putting on make-up and repeating those comforting words to me.
He was the one who would always initiates to hold my hands in the public, and walked proudly along the streets. He would always be the one tolerated, smiling and laughing at my childish acts. He would always be the one who gives me beautiful cards when comes to our monthly celebration, and I can say that he always did so much better than me!
He would always be the one who treats whenever we go for dinner, no matter is it IKEA (our fav hangout place), pizzahut, swensens, xiao xuan feng or kopitiam. How much would the bills be? Yes. $20 and above. He never complain. I didn't know how hard he was trying to save money, until he told me recently that how much we enjoyed together is how much he always tries to save. How he save? Yong Tau Fu will be his lunch in school everyday. "3 pieces of ingredient will be enough", he said. I feel so guilty =(
How could I even say the word "break-up" or "we will not last la" just because things can't get what I want it to be. I will never do that because I know that I love him. Love is not just caring for yourself but your partner too.And, I know that he would be much sweeter than now.
I felt sorry that I didn't appreciate him enough, whenever I did something which I thought was wrong and hurting for him, I always tell him to give me up and ask him to find a better one. He would always "shut" my stupid thinking by saying very patiently and gently, "Since you know that (this act) is wrong, why don't you say 'I will change for the better.' ?" And, he end it with a very sincere smile.
Patience, caring, adorable, helpful, filial and lovely, that's what he is. And I don't deny. =D I love him and he will always be the one in my heart!
And yes, extracted from the show, "Dating is the chance to learn more about each other." Its been 7+ months already! HAHA time really flies and I don't know why I still can remember every details about you and the times we had.
My dearest Baby Yeo! Lets make everyday a beautiful day to get to know each other more. HUGS!!
I love my Boyfriend, Kenneth Yeo!
♥ I have spoken today... =)
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